sing sing sing (:

click here and enjoy the song :) --> Lose My Soul - Toby Mac (feat. Kirk Franklin, Mandisa)

Man I wanna tell you all something, Man.
Man I'm not gonna let these material thing's, get in my way, you all.
I'm trying to get somewhere.
I'm trying to get somewhere,
Thats real and pure and true and eternal.

Father God, I am clay in your hands,
Help me to stay that way through all life's demands,
'Cause they chip and they nag and they pull at me,
And every little thing I make up my mind to be,
Like I'm gonna be a daddy whose in the mix,
And I'm gonna be a husband who stays legit,
And I pray that I'm an artist who rises above,
The road that is wide and filled with self love,
Everything that I see draws me,
Though it's only in You that I can truly see that its a feast for the eyes- a low blow to purpose.
And I'm a little kid at a three ring circus.

I don't want to gain the whole world, and lose my soul,
Don't wanna walk away, let me hear the people say.
I don't want to gain the whole world, and lose my soul,
Don't wanna walk away, let me hear the people say.

(Mr. Franklin, Step up to the mic sir)

The paparazzi flashes, and that they think that it's you,
But they don't know that who you are is not what you do,
True, we get it twisted when we peak at the charts,
Yo before we part from the start,
Where's your heart?
You a pimp, hustler?
Tell me what's your title,
America has no more stars, now we call them idols,
You sit idle, While we teach prosperity,
The first thing to prosper should be inside of me.
We're free...
Not because of 22's on the range,
But Christ came in range, we said yes now we changed,
Not the same, even though I made a fall,
Since I got that call, no more Saul, now I'm Paul.
(YEP!)

I don't want to gain the whole world, and lose my soul,
Don't wanna walk away, let me hear the people say.
I don't want to gain the whole world, and lose my soul,
Don't wanna walk away, let me hear the people say.
Don't wanna walk away,
Don't wanna walk away

How do I sense the tide that's rising?
De-sensitizing me from living in light of eternity,
How do I sense the tide that's rising?
It's hypnotizing me from living in light of eternity,
How do I sense the tide that's rising?
De-sensitizing me from living in light of eternity.

(Lord what we gonna do,We're relying on you,
all eyes are on you Lord,
all eyes are on you, all eyes are on you Jesus.)

I don't want to gain the whole world, and lose my soul,
Don't wanna walk away, let me hear the people say.
(Don't let me lose my soul, my soul.)
I don't want to gain the whole world, and lose my soul,
(This is my honesty, Father, won't you cover me.)
I don't want to gain the whole world, and lose my soul,
(Don't wanna walk away, and all those people say)
I don't want to gain the whole world, and lose my soul,
(Don't wanna lose, I don't wanna lose my soul.)

Lord forgive us when we get consumed by the things of this world,
That fight for our love, and our passion,
As our eyes are open wide and on you.
Grant us the privilege of your world view,
And may your kingdom be, what wakes us up, and lays us down.

(Hallelujah, Don't wanna lose our soul,
No, Don't wanna lose my soul.)

Hey excuse me,
I'm looking for the after party,
Toby,
Ha ha, yeah, last door on the left, you'll hear it.
Thanks,
No problem.

Don't let me lose my soul, I never wanna walk away,
I don't wanna lose my soul,
No, no, no.
Don't let me, don't let me, lose my soul,
I don't wanna walk away,
Don't let me walk away,
Na na na na no,
Don't let me lose, my soul,
I'm never gonna walk away.

The rainbow is waiting to show her harmonize colour someday

Jesus..

You know me..

You know me more than everyone

i won't regret my spontanious desicion which i make 3.5 years ago.. although they don't understand..

It just takes time to get through this term..

i believe in You... 

i put all my doubts into Your hands.. 

lead me..

'cos the best is yet to come

dah bbrpa hari ini... sekali melek dah kek nightmare. lagi2 dia datang tanpa di undang! diusir pun balik lagi!!!!! ga sopan memangggg...

HUH?! capek...

oklah kalau begitu.. g sadar skrg klo ini yg namanya proses :)) dan ini akan terus terjadi untuk beberapa lama ke depan.. iya Tuhan... aku tau kok ^^"

semua yg abu2 itu seakan memutih skrg.. perlahan tapi pasti. g tau Tuhan sedang melakukan pemulihan dan emg cuman waktu yg bisa ngbuktiin kpn.

g bersyukur, Tuhan temenin g lewatin semua ini...

firman-Nya, iya dan amin..

klo telinga-Nya dan tangan-Nya ga pernah kurang tajam dan kurang panjang untuk mendengarkan juga menggemgam tangan g :))

ga semua orng ngerti knpa g ambil keputusan ini bbrpa tahun yg lalu.. sempat g sesali memang kmrn2.. tapi lewat kejadian ini, meskipun waktu itu g sepertinya sembarangan, g baru menyadari kemarinnn klo keputusan g pasti bagian dari rencana-Nya yang mendatangkan kebaikan.

g super lega skrg XD

'cos i know, the best is yet to come

kasih karunia -Nya cukup untuk g pake :)

ok..

saya.. manusia.. manusia punya perasaan. sakit.. hepi.. bahagia.. puas.. gembira.. sedih.. marah.. bete.. benci.. etc klo masi ada yg blm g sebutin.

g kebawa2 si biru untuk beberapa waktu lalu.. i need someone to talk to.. but I was too proud of myself and i refused to do that because I think i just pray pray and pray by myself and it'll over soon. tapi ini bukan artinya doa g ga ada hasil. g SANGAT memerlukan Dia, tanpa Dia, hidup g bisa jadi sama dengan neraka. well.. tapi g jg manusia yg perlu cerita sama sahabat atau keluarga kan? --> cerita lama yang baru aja g 'sadari' kembali.

pas g nemu si biru ini, hati g lumayan... 'jleb!'

pikiran g: "難道我還沒放下嗎?"

g tanya Tuhan, kenapa? ini kan masalah lamaaaaaaa bngt... kok g masi 放不下??

keknya ga mungkin bngt gtu...

akhrnya.. mlm itu g minta Tuhan, ambil si biru ini.. ga enak bngt!! rasanya ga pengen ketemu si biru ini d hari esok.

mlm itu.. g tiduran d ranjang.. g hanya menatap langit dan bertanya dlm diri g, knpa? dan kok bisa???

esok paginya, pas g dtg lagi ke Dia.. sebuah lagu bermain dalam telinga, hati dan pikiran g:

'bagi-Mu pujian.. hormat kemuliaan.. Kau lah kebanggaan di dalam hidupku..'

T______T

'janji-Mu bersinar.. buktikan Kau besar.. tiada yang seperti-Mu, Yesus, Tuhanku..'

TT____________TT

i've no words.. i just have tears at the time because His presence come and comfort me..

Tuhan blg: 'tidak ada kasih di dunia ini yang seperti kasih-Ku, nak.. tidakkah ini cukup bagimu?'
lalu Tuhan mengulang: 'tidakkah ini saja sudah lebih dari cukup bagimu?'

lepas jam itu, i tell myself: 'apapun yg terjadi, kenyataannya tetap satu.. Allah adalah Allah yang mengasihi g.. kasih karunia-Nya cukup untuk g..'

wah... g berasa g dah bebas dari si biru dan i'm ready for a new day :)

esoknya.. tidak dsangka.. si biru dtg lagi T____________________T it just keep on hurting me!!

akhrnya.. g memilih untuk block si biru.. dari tempat dimana aja dia bisa muncul. g dah ga tahan!! g harus cari cara untuk ga terpengaruh dan kebawa2 lagi. kasih karunia Tuhan ckup buat g!! (ternyataa usaha sih usaha.. tapi malah pake kekuatan sendiri, jangan ditiru!!)

slsai ngblock, g lega bngt!!! dgn hepi saya melewati hari itu.. tapi anak2 Tuhan emg dah digariskan untuk dididik dengan memakai kasih karunia Tuhan dalam menghadapi kenyataan.

ternyata g lupa ngblock si biru dari ruang chatting g hahaahahahahahaa gmn g bisa tahu? karena sang pemilik yang mendatangkan si biru manggil g saat itu >__< deg! matenggg... gmn nih.. tapi ga tau knpa.. pada saat itu.. berangsur2.. ga terlalu lama tapi jg ga terlalu cepet.. si biru seakan mundur bbrpa langkah lalu dia hilang dari peredaran. berangur2 g berasa lega, damai.. g merasa.. Tuhan temenin g lewatin si biru tanpa harus ngblock si pemilik hahahaha

hati g luluh dari yg kepengen kabur, jadi... ya Tuhan.. g akan tetap lewat jalanan rusak ini, ga muter2 nyari jalan laen, karena kasih karunia Tuhan ckup buat g n janji Tuhan yang kek pelangi ituuuu akan g liat di ujung jalan ini.

g nemu 1 artikel yg bagus bngt :)) Piano Butut g anggep ini sbgai dessert setelah g melewati si biru ini hehehe

thanks God! i finally found someone to share with hahaha i really thank her.. dia menemani, mendengarkan, memberi masukan dan berdoa untuk g.

berdua (mksdnya untuk sesama manusia) memang lebih baik daripada sendirian hahahahahahahaaaa teori yang suka ilang muncul ilang muncul dalam idup g ini..

love you, guys :D

love. love. love

spring of love ^^

uhhmm.. i can smell love is in the air hahaha

ga tau knpa yah... pastinya.. biarpun perasaan ini lg proses pemulihan, love-nya Babe nyanggg puaaaling kerasa deh hahaha terutama dari Le-Ye Family :))

jadi inti note ini adalah.. saya lagi ingin say makasi sama kalian :))

drmh itu bljr saling ngerti, saling ngalah, saling memperbaiki, saling nopang, saling hepi, saling ngdoain, saling bantu, saling care, saling ngasih pundak, saling ngasih pijetan, saling ngegelitik (esp. moy cie yang pualinggg sensi hahahahahahaahhahahaaaaa tidak perlu melalui sentuhan tapi ckup melalui perkataan atau perbuatan), saling latihan buat kemoceng (ini klo dah d level tertentu.lol), saling ngerokkin, saling bahu membahu masak, cuci piring, buang sampah, saling bantu nyuci baju hahahahahaha angkat baju jg... yang terutama adalah saling nerima satu sama lain dan saling mengoreksi.

pokoknya tiap pulang dorm sekolah, pasti lgsg kangennnnn bngt sama rumah le-ye..

semua hal yang membuat susah hati, pasti bisa ada penghiburan dsna :))

xie2 yah da-jia...

loph2 you guys! the best house-mate ever XD

'hello??'

ga tau knpa... g ckup bangga dengan pengalaman g yg satu ini walaupun klo skrg g piki2 n g ceritain k org lain keknya dah ga lucu. tpi klo lu ada dsamping g waktu itu, lu bakal ikutan g ngakak hehehehehe

alkisah..

jumat lalu, tatank kepengenn hunting poto di gedung tua di sebelah sekolah fandy. berhubung si fandy n kevin kuliah, jadilahhhh saya yg temani pergi... dalam keadaan panas dan jalan menanjak disana >__<

lalu setelah capeeee berkeliling, waktunya pulang nih. dah hepi!

g, fandy n tatank lagi jalan menuju ke pintu gerbang untuk pulang. nahhh dsaamping pintu gerbang itu ada sebuah pintu kecil yang dinding2 sekitarnya banyak tumbuhan sulur (merambat di atas dinding2). karna cuaca yg super ga mendukung... dah keringetan.. panas.. capekk.. bisa dbayangkan betenya muka g = ="

ketika kita semakin mendekat ke pintu gerbang itu, ada seorang tante2 di sebelah kanan g yg blg bgni, berikut terjemahannya:
"hello??? apa kamu tidak merasa pintu ini bagus?"

g dengan muka besong karena capek n panas spontan menoleh.. dan dia tampaknya bicara sama g, lalu g mendekati dia, dlm ati g: "pintu yg ga ada bagus2nya begn??.... nah... nih org minta d fotoin tapi kok ga ada kameranya? cuman casing kamera..."

semakin g mendekat sama dia, dia tb2 ngmg:
"ohhh... sori! saya bicara sama teman saya, orang dibelakang kamu itu..."

g nengok dan memang kamera yg g cari tadi ada di tangan temannya yg jg sdg berjalan mendekat ke arah dia bersamaan dengan g.

ngerti ga cerita g ini????

klo lu dah kenal ma teman lu, apa lu masi bisa manggil dia dgn panggilan 'hello???'

SUPRISE!!!

one of my close friend gave me a present yesterday..

COME ON!! you made me look silly at the time >___<

thats toooo valuable for me and... of course for you, ok?!

well.. i'm amazed when you told me what God has told you and it melt my heart:
'ok.. i received it. thank you veryyy much!' i answered

Thank You!!! So much... sister :)) won't make you disappointed

love you! and may Brother J bless you abundantly (L)

A Heart For You

Hai :)

how's your weekend? :)

i have a great sunday actually :)) i don't know why.. but i just felt so happy hihi

so.. early in the morning i woke-up. uhm.. about 5.15 or 20 i guess. took a bath n preparing for that day's service. i was really nervous because i was the worship leader but i thank God for His graces.. He always successfully-make-me-feel-comfortable as i come to serves Him. not just as a leader, but as a servant who really want to serve the best for her/i master.

it's not about me! how great i am... NO! i repeat: NO!!
but it's all about Him, Jesus. the one

i sat on my chair and began to pray for the whole 1'st service that day. suddenly, i felt like He's gonna put something new in every heart who really seek Him.. something is upgrade-ing.. a new hope.. a new love.. a new faith..

i can hear His voice clearly as He whispered: " I  love you, My child. I love you because I created you... you are Mine and there's no one, nor a power can draw you away from Me."

i was strengthened because i know my God is always with me :)


so.. i walked to the stage and He took my part.. i felt like i didn't lead the worship at the time. i felt like i just say and sing what was come into my mind and my heart.. i just want God's-lovely-children enjoy His presence.

after the service i felt more peace inside my heart. more powerful. more faith. more love.. esp. to love Him day by day.

i wanna live for You. not by might. not by power. but by Your spirit. i'll shine for You. glorify Your name so others can see You-are-real through me.

not by our service but by our true life. save the lost!!

a song came to my heart:
Tuhan inilah yang ku tahu.. Kau mengenal hatiku..
Jauh melebihi semua.. yang terdekat sekalipun..
Tuhan inilah yang ku mau.. Kau menjaga hatiku..
Supaya kehidupan memancar senantiasa..

"so God created man in His own image, in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them." Gen 1:27

Thanks God! You remind me about Indonesia

Hai :(

it won't be a great day (i guess! uhmm.. sorry, Brother J)

i feel soooo blue right now without any reason...

actually, i guess... i know why i can feel like this. but.. i choose to keep silent 'til i find someone i can share with. so this is why this blog active. again.lol. after a long long time :)

i think i need a holiday ( yes, i think ).. i mean a true holiday!! i miss my hometown so much lately. i don't know why.. but since i don't have enough monye to buy a ticket n i don't have any reason to make-my-own-holiday in a school day, i decide to share my-this-strange-feeling with Brother J (red. pray). i pray for Indonesia a lot this days. for my family. my close relatives. my best-friends. for the politics. for the economic. for ... uhm... a lot of stuff are turning in my mind everytime this feeling come into my heart and i just start to pray for it one by one. and funniest thing is.. well.. i usually read Kompas by the website only. but i think it's not really effective if you really want to know clearly what is happening in Indonesia because you have to click and search by yourselves, and i think its just waste my time. so.. i became the member of Kompas e-paper (you know.. that paper) appears in front of me hehe so i feel like i'm reading my newspaper with my breakfast, like i usually do in my home (indonesia).

Happy for it! and since that time.. i pray a lot for Indonesia. i believe that God wants to call-up more and more people to pray for this land because He is going to transform it to be a better Indonesia in a very-short-time.

ok! i need to go now.. i'll share what i got while i'm praying for Indonesia later :)
so.. if you are Indonesian, please don't forget to pray for our lovely land. God wants to use you and me to bless this land. Viva Indonesia! :))